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February 11, 2013

From Stephen Cabral

Do you feel under appreciated in New England, considering that you were the impetus for delivering a championship to the most championship starved city in the U.S.?


Not sure I’ve ever looked at what’s happened since then, with that perspective. I guess I can’t really worry or dwell on it. The guys I suited up with, played with, know, the Lord and my family know, and in the end those are the opinions that matter really. In the same vein, I know those same guys were in many ways every bit, and in some cases more so, responsible than I was. I think Keith Foulke was the single biggest reason we won (well he and Dave Roberts of course:). I still believe his post season in ’04 was one of the greatest ever by a reliever. Stats aside the workload, and results, were nothing short of amazing. The innings Wake pitched to save the pen, the job Bronson did, D Lowe clutching up in 3 series clinchers. There were so many things beyond my contributions that mattered, but the sock grabbed much of the news, which given what we did I think is a bit unfortunate.


But here’s the thing.

I’ve haven’t done any of  the following: Hit my wife, hit my kids, cheated on my taxes, gotten drunk and driven, done drugs, used PED’s, been a racist, stolen, cheated on my wife, beaten an animal, talked behind a teammates back. In other words I haven’t done the things that make news and turn public opinion on many athletes.


Now don’t misunderstand me. That’s not to say I haven’t made my share of mistakes because I surely have. Anyone that talks as much as I have, and did, is bound to make mistakes. But I put my head on the pillow at night because I haven’t, and don’t make mistakes out of malice or ill will. I’ve said many many dumb things, and saying “well who hasn’t?” doesn’t make my mistakes ok, they just make me human, and I am ok with that. The only perfect human I know of walked this earth a little over 2000 years ago, every one since then has been and done wrong, everyone. Again, that doesn’t make it ok, it just makes it easier to live every day, knowing perfection, while desirable, is unattainable. Doesn’t mean you stop trying.


But the hatred, the vitriol, I’d say 90% of the ‘stuff’ that’s come out the past 8-9 years has as much, if not more, to do with my political  beliefs than anything else. I can certainly appreciate and understand the difference in opinions, even if I disagree with them, but that’s what makes this country great.


As for 38, that’s certainly garnered the lions share of ‘news’ about me in the past year. The amazing thing is how much opinion has been formed with so little, very little, of the actual events about and around what happened, being made public. I created a company, invested over 30 million dollars of my own money into it, created and provided 400+ jobs for 5+ years, took an offer from the State of Rhode Island that ANY, and I mean ANY, entrepreneur would have taken. We had something amazing, something that would have been what we set out to make it, had it not ended when, and how, it did. There has been an amazing amount of anger, bitterness, hatred and other stuff from that. I can absolutely understand ANYONE that had issues with the original deal. I have always understood anyone having issue there, but there was nothing, not one thing, done below board. Once the deal was done I expected the state to be as invested in 38 being successful as we were, as I was, and that was where I made one of many fatal mistakes.


That is one of the most painful events I’ve ever gone through, still is actually. 400+ families lost their jobs ‘overnight’ for reasons that will likely come out over the next year or two, and when they do I’m hopeful people will see what really happened, and how and why it happened, and point the venom and anger in the appropriate directions. I do understand people bothered by the deal though, and always have. I think we made a big mistake at 38 by not getting more involved locally, in Providence, in the community more, to show them who we were, what we were doing because the people that worked at 38 didn’t deserve the public scorn, and anger, that they got. They were hard working incredibly talented people with families to provide for.


Went off on a tangent there (as I often do, but hey it’s my blog so I think it’s ok). But if you look at what’s happened since ’04, it’s never been about something I ‘did’ has it? I think it’s been far more about things I’ve said, which I can understand in many cases if you don’t agree with me on one or more things. Somehow I grew up the polar opposite of my incredible father, a man of very few words, but I’ve always been very obsessed and passionate about the things I believe in, the things I love, and when people ask me about them, I’ve never been a ‘canned answer’ sort of guy. Maybe I should have been, but that’s never been who I am, or likely who I ever will be.


At the end of the day I’ll continue to ask the Lord for forgiveness for the stupid and bad things I’ve done, and will do, and I can look my 3 boys, my daughter, and my wife, in the eye and know for better or worse, I am who I’ve said I was, and always have been. That’s all we’ve ever asked of our kids, to please be themselves, go out, change the world, and be themselves. If you do that I think you can put your head on the pillow each night and sleep.


Hope that answers your question.


P.S. I am not going back and re-reading or editing, so this is all raw, off the cuff stuff, sorry for any typos.



11 Comments leave one →
  1. February 12, 2013 9:57 am

    Great post….and I hope the full story on 38 comes out soon…..would make a great book or at least a compelling article. Money, politics, stars, business…..sounds like a best seller to me. Nice to have you back Curt.

  2. February 12, 2013 10:08 am

    I must dispute the claim of Boston being the most championship starved city in the US.

    At the beginning of the 2004 baseball season, look at these longest title droughts:
    NL, World Series : Chicago Cubs, 1908 — lost 7 series since their last win (Boston Braves won the Series in 1914)
    NL, Pennant: Cubs, 1945 (Boston Braves, 1948)
    AL, World Series, Chicago White Sox, 1917 (Yes, the Red Sox would win 2 World Series before the White Sox would win again)
    AL, Pennant: White Sox, 1959 (Red Sox 1986)
    NHL Stanley Cup: Chicago Black Hawks, 1961 (Bruins 1972)
    NFL: Chicago Cardinals, 1947 — even moving twice has not been enough to shake the curse (At the start of the 2004 baseball season, the Patriots had won 2 of the last 3 Super Bowls)
    NBA titles at that time: Celtics 16 (last in 1986 — now 17), Bulls 6 (last in 1998, but had not made the playoffs since)

    I will admit losing the World Series (Super Bowl, Cup Finals) stings more than losing before then — there’s no baseball left to watch. Chicago fans really don’t know what to do with baseball in October.

  3. February 12, 2013 1:18 pm

    It’s great to see you blogging again, Curt. True fans like me will always appreciate your contributions to the championship team. Especially given the state of pitching over the past two seasons. Also, I hope that those of us who disagree with you on political issues can at least be civil about it.

    Speaking of which, it always strikes me as simplistic when politicians celebrate small business success stories in their “private sector versus public sector” narratives because they always ignore the fact that most small businesses fail, even those with great products and experienced management. Has your experience with 38 Studios given you any insight that can help these politicians find some ways to help entrepreneurs better manage the start-up process?

    I was really looking forward to Project Copernicus, for what it’s worth.

  4. empirelady permalink
    February 13, 2013 1:29 am

    No need to apologize for anything that you have written here. I appreciate that you were writing as the thoughts came to you,honestly,from the heart. Here in New York,the New York Times has been writing about what happened with 38,with updates(including the auction of the sock,sorry!)but sincerely,I would much rather hear about it from you. I give you much credit for mentioning it,as I am aware of how painful a situation it is,has been,and I sympathize,as well as send support. It is a true testament to the compassionate, beautiful human being that you are for you to suffer a tremendous loss(emotionally and financially),as well as have tough times ahead of you,yet be so concerned and upset for the others at the company. As for the “hatred” that you mention directed towards you in terms of politics,I have at times disagreed with you but have never hated you,and I hope that others would feel the same way. You and I do not always believe in the same things,like some political or religious things(don’t hate me because I am a Democrat and Jewish)but that does not mean that it cannot be discussed. We are all entitled to our own thoughts,opinions,and beliefs. I welcome anything that you have to say and even if I don’t agree,I stil want to hear your point of view. For the record,there are a lot of things that we do agree on,including sports and love of humanity,helping others(what you do for others who are suffering with ALS or other human suffering is so great). But I digress. I have a cousin who is a conservative Republican in Washington(executive director of the Republican Study Committee)and I debate, discuss,issues with him often. I welcome the chance to hear what you have to say,so don’t stop and I am sorry that people who don’t agree feel the need to be angry. Final thought: I again think that you deserve much credit for making mention of all the others on the team who contributed to the games that you mention,and it was a team effort, but at the same time don’t diminish what you did,either. I had major ankle surgery years ago(have a metal plate and nine screws)so I know that it was no easy feat for you to have done what you did,both physically and mentally. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and insight into the baseball,your life,past and current,your thoughts,and feelings,which could not have been easy,and which moved me. I look forward to many more postings,about a variety of topics. You have my support and admiration. Donna in New York City.

  5. February 13, 2013 8:41 am

    C.H.I.R.A. : Courageous, honest, in-depth, real. Amen.

  6. June 28, 2013 11:41 am

    Well said, Curt! Bean Town is a much better place from your influence. Ignore the critics, even when it hurts! Throwing rocks is easy, pitching great for the Sox is not! Graciously dodging thrown rocks harder yet. Keep on forgiving and speaking your mind, the lefty’s hate it and will scream, but who cares, it is not to them that we have to give an account when all is said and done.

  7. March 26, 2014 9:30 am


    I know a lot of us in New England love what you did for us. You helped my friends dad ( and especially your wife ) who had ALS, and I will always be thankful to you for that. I think you traded your career for a world series berth, and I am very grateful for that too. You put your money where your mouth was, so to say. Its worth noting I am Libertarian, and do not have the same vitriol for conservatism many in New England have. I think what happened with you and Tim Thomas was shameful. I just want you to know you touched those around me, and though I doubt you need it, I’d be proud to shake your hand and buy you a drink if I ever met you. Good luck in your fight, I have before and will pray for you.


  8. March 28, 2014 5:39 pm

    I agree with the wise people that always tell us that the real heroes are the troops, firefighters, police, doctors, etc….. But the same logic tells us that we shouldn’t be watching baseball at all….or even playing it–we should be doing “important, valuable, life-changing things with out precious time. But that’s now how we live; for me, baseball is interesting and the red sox are a part of my life. And from the day you came to Boston–your statements, politics, public beliefs, honesty, and determination, made you one of my heroes. You helped create possibly the greatest moment in red sox history, and there are a lot of people who live with untarnished appreciation for your awesomeness. Keep it up (and I’m sorry about 38 studios–I was rooting for you there too)!
    –Elliot Harvey

  9. ericpollock permalink
    July 27, 2014 10:15 pm


    What do you consider to bet the best town, or city, to live in ,for baseball?


  10. March 4, 2015 5:34 pm


    Bravo! I am so sorry this happened to you and your family. Thank God there are hero’s like you who take a stand for bullies like this. Thank you for doing what you did to expose this person as they and anyone else needs to realize that they can’t hide anymore from their trolling and abusing behavior on the internet. I hope that what you did today will teach anyone who thinks they can treat people like this that they will be found and that they will be punished.

    God bless you and your family and Congratulations to your daughter. What an amazing accomplishment for her and for your whole family.


  11. March 4, 2015 5:45 pm

    Mr. Schilling,
    I must admit, I was not a big fan of yours because of the teams you played for, but I did ADMIRED you for playing the way you did: the bloddy sock, sharing the MVP with Randy Johnson in 2001, and how fierce and pasionate you played the game from the get go… It is no surprise you are taking this situation they way it needs to be taken. You won’t take crac from anybody, never have, and OBVIOUSLY, NEVER WILL!!!!
    I am a father of two girls, one 8 years old, one 6 months old. They mean the world to me, and If anything remotely close to you and your daughter’s situation ever happen to me or any of my daughters, I hope I get to have the same means and outlets to do what you have done about it.
    Forget the teams rivalry, forget the political afiliation, forget the political correctness, this goes way beyond that! This is about a family man protecting the ones he loves, and I thank you that you are using your position as a public figure to bring this out in the open.
    I can not believe that people are saying that you shouldn’t put that information out because you could ruin somebody’s life… F&*ˆ% THEM!!!! even more surprising is, the comments are not only coming from men, but WOMEN as well!!!!!!!
    I know you are a big supporter of us Service Members (Culinary Specialist Second Class, United States Navy, Active Duty), and we also thank you for that. Having been in the Service for a few years now, as well as a student athlete in my college years, I can identify with what you are saying about “locker room”talk. Man, if anybody would put a recorder in my berthing while I was on deployment… not a good thing. But that is as far as it went, notighin got out, nobody would express that way out in the open, because there is a time and a place for it. Of course, there are always a few bad apples, but most of the time they were outed by the rest of us, since not a lot of people wanted to be associated with them.
    I guess my point would be, I am not looking at you or the way you decided to tackle this situation as a ball player or a republican; I am just looking at you and taking notes as well as a fellow father who loves his daughter (daghters, in my case) and would do anything in his power to make sure that she is happy, safe, and that she feels loved and protected.
    Thank you for putting the spotlight on this very serious issue that, by judging from some of the comments, it is still looked as “they didn;t mean anything by that, it was just joke”. Screw them! they need to be held accountable for their actions.
    God bless.

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